With a Blind Eye

Today I went to the eye doctor where I was given eye drops to dilate my pupils. Once my pupils are dilated, the doctor was able to use special equipment with lights to check my eyes. Once the doctor checks my eyes and gives me the "all clear", he explains that the drops will cripple my vision for up to 5 hours. After I heard that I thought, that's ok, I am only walking to the beach, I should be fine. Once I put on my Ralph Lauren sunglasses and head out onto the Honolulu streets, the sun hits me, blinds me and the tears start streaming from my eyes. I try to look around and focus, but I could not. Everything I looked at was blurred. The sun combined with the eye drops has rendered me close to blindness. I say close because it felt better to keep my eyes shut as oppose to quickly shuttering them to try to see clearly because that is not going to happen anytime soon. So I am debating on whether to walk back home or continue with my beach plans. So I fight the turn around and press forward. I had trouble seeing the crosswalk signs, the distance of the cars and my reading was highly impaired. As I cross the street I made sure I had to cross the street with other people just so I was sure I would be safe and cross at the right time. As I go through those five hours with my vision impaired it reminds me of a father and daughter that I have seen twice lately on my runs down King St. The father is blind and uses a stick while his daughter, approximately age 9, has her arm looped in one of his arms. I have seen them in the grocery store and then a second time walking to their home. I wondered how grown up she must have to be to care for her dad who was blind. Does the little girl feel like she is missing out on fun or does she resent her dad for something he could not control? Does the dad feel resentment because he has to have his daughter take care of him? All and all it must be difficult going through life with impaired vision. Although mine was briefly blurry, what if I had no vision? I see the most beautiful flowers, grains of sand, the colors of the ocean water, the colors of tomatoes, the face of my daughter, the plates of food I make, what if I did not have my eye sight and had to depend on my little girl to walk me to the store, buy milk or walk me to the bathroom? My point is I took for granted something that I have until I had it briefly taken away from me. Lets be grateful for what we have because the person next to you may not have.

Todays Working or Non Working Youth

I remember my mom telling me when I was younger to be careful, you don't want to grow up too fast. I am 34 and in the work force with children. Yes, children. The kids that are working these days are so immature and think that they are tough and know it all. Some of them think that at 20, they have led a tough life. 20? Are you kidding me, you are still in diapers. These kids need to wise up because life might just get a little harder as they get older. Mommy and Daddy will not always be around to pick up the pieces for you, pay your bills or bail you out of jail.

Also some kids these days feel they are entitled to luxuries without working for them ie. Paris Hilton. Now Paris is making her own lane now, but before it was all given to her. Hello youth, your not going to be getting much so you better get to work and like it!

Change is Good

After a well deserved 4 week break, I am back to blogging. A lot of growth and change has happened in the last 4 weeks. Some of the highlights are purging negative and non influential people from my life, my need to seek a more challenging cooking job and moving into my own place.

If anyone knows me really well they realize that I am an ever changing person. I see new things and thrive to create possibilities. I have always been that way with my life and always will be that way. I reside in a State that, through my experiences, are not the biggest fans of change. I am all for if it's not broke don't fix it; but if we are constantly talking about the flawed education system, on going automobile traffic issues and employment troubles, than changes need to be made.

When other cities, states and countries are so advance and are changing to make improvements for a better life why isn't Hawaii? I am not going to continue on a rant to fix the numerous and various downfalls of this state because I am not a politician. However it is an example of how I have tweaked my course of life and how I will write the next chapter in my personal book.

I guess I am just tired of people complaining like they are victims of a life Voo Doo or something. I am not trying to be insensitive because we all have our ups and downs but I am true believer that like is what you make it. You hate your job or your not making enough money, move on. You don't like the relationships your in, be it friend or other, move on. Change is good, life is all about making the best of it.

So when you wake up each day or when you fall asleep thinking about all the errands you need to run, people you need to call or things you want or need; make sure that you adhere to them if that is what you desire. Go for what is in your heart and mind, and never settle.